Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Baby love

Whoa- I'm behind on posting! I've been really busy doing some spring cleaning around my neglected house. When I was sick the last thing I wanted to do was mop! We had the house pressure washed last week and that really freaked out the pugs. But the house looks great!
This past Saturday I went over to hang with Susan, Will, & Olivia. While I was there Miss O signed her new sign she had learned just that morning(!), she learns so fast- cookie. I finally got kisses too. That's a big deal! She had a big time playing with my sunglasses. She's so great. Any time I feel down about how long it is taking for me to be a mom I hang out with her and can totally imagine my own girls. Of course, Susan's fabulous at pep talks too!
Two of my furry babies had to go to the vet Monday. Molly for another puppy visit and boosters, and Kea cause her little ears had turned all red. Turns out Kea is allergic to GRASS! Quite inconvenient as my entire lawn is grass and that's where I'd prefer her to potty vs. inside the house. So she's on allergy meds and she's doing great. Molly loves going to the vet.
Riding in the car and getting love from multiple people is the best for a baby pug!
Then Tuesday we had a bit of a scare. I dropped a bottle of prescription meds and they went all over the floor. Molly (I thought) grabbed one and gulped it down. Right to the vet we went and she's still there under observation. She hasn't shown any signs of toxicity though, so maybe she dropped the pill. But better to be safe then sorry. I was a MESS thinking I'd killed my baby girl. I can't imagine how it would feel if it were Ling Ling! I miss Molly though and can't wait for her to come home!
Today my mom came over and helped me around the house a bit. We tore down 2 cat pee smelling trees out front of my house that blocked the porch. Then Mom decided my shutters needed to be painted. Crazy woman. I was scared to death the whole time she was hanging out my office window. They look great now though!

Sunday, June 25, 2006

A myriad, a plethora, a bevy if you will

Of jumbled thoughts.

-Love the word bevy. Sounds like the name of your favorite babysitter or that fun girl in class.
-My hair has decided after 30 plus years that it wants to be curly. Esp when it is hot and humid out. But only in one spot. This is driving me insane.
-No more bleeding! For a few days now! I'm free!
-Adoption update: Not sure if I've mentioned this of late, but everything is kind of on hold til we raise/save some more money. Which sucks, but we're getting there.
-I don't understand the point of sesame seeds. Do they have a taste at all? They never really stick to buns. They just fall off. And if I planted one, what would grow?

-There is an inordinate amount of toddler nudity going on over at my sister's house. Makes for great photos, but you know the neighbors are groaning! I've never seen a kid love to be nakey as much as my nephew Joey. Combine that with his inclination for exploring and that makes for some Fun Times!
-A table full of people at a restaurant who do NOT look and coo at a baby is so much more odd to me than seeing a group of adults coo and goo goo at a child.
-More and more I find myself disliking drinking anything out of a glass glass. Plastic and acrylic is fine. Classy right?
-I think my eyebrows have shifted over time (and due to some bad plucking on my part I'm sure) and now I think they are totally off center. I don't think there is a way to fix this.
-I have so much to do around the house, and all I want to do is nap and watch VH1. Damn that Celebreality!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Lovely wee things

I ADORE summer patio and garden decor and accessories. I love summer dishware- all that plastic and melamine in those fabulous colors! I love brightly colored sparkly shiny things you can hang from ceilings and tree branches. And this year I'm loving these fabulous things- from afar mind you, the adoption budget does not allow for frivolous summer spending sprees:

This adorable garden sculpture is from Carruth Studios. The artist there makes a ton of adorable things that are all really affordable. I love the face on this fish named Sid. Doesn't he look like a grumpy grampa? They have a sweet little ladybug mini sculpture. But I'm on a budget and can manage self control sometimes. Plus, I don't want to turn into the crazy ladybug lady. I like other things too!

This I love as an idea and a finished product. An outdoor rug that you can hose off but is still way cute. You can get it here, and they come in a million (there abouts) colors and patterns. And for less than $70! Deal!

And of course my favorite place in the world, IKEA, didn't let me down this year. There are too many things to list all the ones I love. But I adore this garden gnome: and these tea light holders: You can check out their summer offerings by clicking here. Thankfully the closest IKEA is 3.5 hours away or we would be filing for bankruptcy! I am making a promise to myself to get there before the fall if it kills me!

So, any other cutie pie things out there I need to know about?

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Medical Disaster

So I went to the doctor yesterday because Jon was sure I was growing a brain tumor since my eye turned all bloody. I knew it was just a blood clot thing, but went to the Dr. anyway. Turns out I'm officially anemic and will have to start taking RX iron. I'm also being put on high blood pressure meds. And, as if that weren't enough, I'm going for a sleep study next month cause Jon noticed I stop breathing when I'm sleeping. I think that should be fun though. I've always wanted to be part of a study of some sort.

In other news, Monday was a rough day and I slept through a good bit of it. Around 3 I took the pugs out back. I still had bed hair, and if any of you have seen me in the a.m. you know that is some skeeeery stuff. I still had my long green night shirt on. I threw open the deck gate/door and directly across from me on my neighbor's deck was a realtor and a hopeful home buying family. My neighbor is selling their house. That slipped my mind at the moment. Molly was squealing and jumping all around, Ike was barking, Kea was howling, and I looked like some sort of zombie. Miraculously their house went under contract yesterday! So either those are some brave people or they went away screaming and some other poor soul bought that house!

Monday, June 19, 2006

I get weak

Wow, throw a little activity at a girl trying to quickly recover from hot pocket surgery and it knocks her flat out man. Saturday Jon's aunt D and her daughter, so I guess my aunt and cousin, came and took me to lunch. I hadn't been out of the house except to go to the doctor in so long. My meds make me really shakey so putting on makeup was a bit tricky. I'm lucky I didn't lose an eye! Then we went to look at model homes (so fun to see how they are decorated! and there are so many new neighborhoods in my area). By the 4th 2 story house I had to sit down. I forgot that losing blood for weeks and weeks can take a lot out of you! I was only light headed for a bit then we were ready to roll again. But by the time I got home it was nap time! I feel like such a frail old lady!
Sunday we had brunch with Jon's parents for Father's Day. Then Jon had to go to work so I headed up to Sara's for a Father's Day cookout. I skipped my pain meds so I could drive. Not fun. On the way up I called my Pappy and my Dad to send Father's Day wishes. They were all at my Nanny & Pappy's house so they passed the phone all around and I was able to talk with Nanny and my aunt as well. All of them scolded me for driving and doing too much. It was kind of funny and ironic for my Pappy (who's on hospice) to scold me, a 32 yr old punk, about taking it easy and getting some rest. But I was totally getting cabin fever and had to get out! I had to load up on motrin for pain once I got to Sara's and then it was bearable. My Mama and Papa came up for the afternoon too. They took the boys to the pool so I was able to rest for a while while they were gone. Jake and Joey look so cute in their little bathing suits! I got to check out their new playset. Joey had a big time showing off, but Jake would only perform for Daddy. Fitting I suppose, for Father's Day and all. When I was leaving I noticed Jake hunched down in the garage. He's in the midst of potty training and while having a big time peeing in the potty, is resisting pooping in the potty. He was sqatting down next to a pile of poop. And their dog had been in the backyard all day. So it wasn't her. Sara and Marc came out and I pointed out the pile. Then we all said our goodbyes and I hit the road, with Mama & Papa behind me. I hadn't driven 5 minutes before Sara called. She had scolded Jake for going poopy in the garage instead of telling someone so he could be helped on the potty. He said "That's Aunt Shanny's poop." She said what?!! He told her "Aunt Shanny pooped in the garage." Well, you know what they say about house guests and fish I guess!
Oh, and here's a little Molly bonus. She's getting so big! She has another vet appt this week so we'll see how much she weighs.
She's almost as tall as Ike! And boy does she work those ears and that cute face!
Lastly, look what I woke up with this morning! I swear, as soon as the bleeding started tapering off down south, it headed north!

Friday, June 16, 2006

Just Breathe

You guys are the best most wonderfullest people ever. Thank you so much. I was just having a rough down day. But I know I gotta keep my chin up and keep plugging away and what will be will be. And frankly, I don't want to be pregnant. I know it would be a medical nightmare. My Obgyn has said so. It was just nice knowing we had an ace in the hole, as it were. But enough about my hot pocket drama!

So, I have a couple of cute quotes for ya from the last couple weeks. I like to write these down to remember them. When we were at the beach we were all talking and it came up that Hot as Hale is deaf in one ear. Jon said "What are you, a pirate?" Wha? We were all confused then cause what's being a pirate got to do with being deaf. So Jon said "Well you know pirates were known for their bad hearing. Standing near those cannons all the time." Bahaha! Here I thought they were known for their pillaging and sea battles and what not. We were rolling. Imagining all the pirates running around with patches on their ears!

Jake was asking where was his Unca Jon yesterday. Sara told him Unca Jon was at work. Jake said he wanted to talk to him. Sara said what do you want to say? Jake said "I want to party with Unca Jon." I couldn't believe it and told Jon and he couldn't believe it so we got Jake on speaker phone and as soon as he heard Unca Jon's voice he said "Party with Unca Jon!". We may not be the best influence!

Thursday, June 15, 2006

I'm in over my head, over my head

A little while ago we had a plan. It seemed like it could work. Like it would work. Foolproof even. Started counting chickens. So we set some things in motion. Wrote a couple of checks for a lot of money. Then I got sick. Again. And we knew we'd have to do something permanent to keep me from bleeding and being sick. So we did. And now, just a little, I'm freaking out. I willingly let them sterilize me. To keep me from bleeding. To make my life better of course. But what if this adoption doesn't work out? Already the wait has doubled. And it is so expensive and is taking so long because it is so expensive. We just don't have $25,000 sitting around. And now it is my only hope. I can't fall back on, well, if it doesn't work out we'll just do IVF. Can't now. My only hope is so far away. I feel sometimes like I'll never be a mom, we'll never have a family. We'll always be that couple at the cookouts with no kids. I don't want that look. That "oh yeah, they couldn't have kids and the adoption didn't work out" look. And people who are DTC, LID for months and months already, end in sight, who are complaining about the wait, oy. I mean, I hear ya, I feel bad for ya, I hate the wait too. I know most of you have struggled just like us. But you're so close. So close. And my walls are crashing in. And I don't want people to feel sorry for me, for us. I just want to get better, to try as hard as I can to make it work. I want to get to where so many of you are, the wait. Where all I'll have to do is decorate, and shop, and wait, and hope. And maybe, hopefully, prayerfully, my only hope will come through for us.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Reality Check

The high I was on courtesy of hospital drugs has worn off. The post op bleeding has started. The horrible reality of what I've done is kicking in. I don't feel well. I'm going to lay down for a while. And thank you even more again for your sweet kind words and wishes. mwah!
I was going to tell you all about this new group I started at Google groups, but the screen is getting blurry. So you'll have to wait. But trust me, it's a good idea. Ok, Recently a small group of bloggy girls met up in Memphis for a weekend of fun and frivolity and it occured to me that it would be nice to be able to organize meet ups with fellow bloggy friends regularly. But I
wanted some way to do it in an organized fashion, seperate from my blog. Something easy to keep up with. Then it hit me- start the Have Blog, Will Travel group! How cool will it be to be able to look up bloggy friends easy peasy when you're going on a trip. Example: if you're travelling to SC and wanted to know if any of your blog friends lived close enough to meet up for lunch, you could just scroll through and check without having to pull up a million blogs! I know, I know, I'm a genius! Ha! Kidding! Now, this is still under construction so bear with me as I get things rolling!
So email me or leave your email in a comment if you'd like to join or get more info. I'm all about planning a big bloggy bash!
Ok, off to bed now...

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Alive and Kicking

Hey, so I made it! Barely slept last night. At the hospital at 5:45am. Home by 11:30. Much sleeping and cramping all afternoon. Pain killers kicked in. Not so bad feeling now. Wee bit loopy! Thank you again for all your well wishes, emails, etc. You guys rock! xoxo

Monday, June 12, 2006


So it is now a little past 11 PM the night before my surgery. I went to the hospital today and gave blood and got my bracelet. Then I picked up my 4 little pills I had to take tonight to relax my cervix. Sweet monkey knuckles. I am gonna die. I have been cramping for the last 2 hours like someone is pulling my organs out through my whoopie with an egg beater.
My fabulous husband made a wonderful dinner of steak and fettucini alfredo and even that couldn't take my mind off these cramps. I am only recording this on my BLOG to serve as a reminder to never let anyone try and relax my cervix again.
I'm going to bed now to count the hours till I can storm the hospital and demand pain meds stat!
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Pre op

Thank you guys so much for all the kind words and well wishes! They mean so much.
My internet at home is actin g up so right now this is the only way I can post. I'm ready for tomorrow and the funny thing is I feel better today than I have in weeks! My inlaws came over yesterday and made dinner and brougt me the book pug hill. So I look forward to reading that as I recover.
All I have left to do today is pick up my post op drugs shave my legs and give a blood sample at the hospital. I feel like taking a sharpie and writing messages to my Dr on my legs like easy trigger! And get while you're in there I wouldn't mind weighing a few pounds less!
We go in at the ass crack of dawn so I may boy post again til Wednesday. So I leave you with a cute thing Jake did. Sara was looking for him the other day and was calling his name. Jake popped his head in her room and in the most grown up little voice for a 3 year old said "whaddya need?". 3 going on 30.
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Saturday, June 10, 2006

The southern patient

So I'm stuck in bed with just my bberry for communication to blogland. The bleeding has slowed down a whole lot due to the meds I'm on that make me puke a whole lot. I do have my surgery date though. Tuesday. Hooray! I go in Monday to get my blood tested. Tuesday is the big day and I should be home by noon. I've had my talk with the nurse about how there's no eating or drinking after midnight and no wearing of jewelry. Bah. Just in case the hospital gown won't make me look cute enough I can't even accessorize! Travesty!
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Hot Pocket!

For those of you wondering, yes I'm still bleeding. No, I'm not kidding. We're over a month now. My obgyn had me on Prometrium to try and stop the bleeding but that didn't work. So today I went in and saw her and we discussed permanent surgical solutions. Rather than give me a hysterectomy (which I don't have time for right now, big project I'm working on), we are going to try something else called Endometrial Ablation. Basically they will insert a balloon into my uterus, fill it with seriously hot water, cook my bits, scrape me out, do a d&c, and send me home. It's surgery so I'll be put to sleep, but I won't have to stay overnight, and recovery time is short, just a couple of days. It does mean that I will officially be sterile, but for all intents and purposes I've been sterile for a while anyway. While no one likes surgery, I'm excited to get this over with, to be able to live my life without carrrying an extra towel and a truckload of pads. This EA may eliminate periods all together! But if it doesn't work then I'll be having a full hysterectomy in about 6 months. Much longer recovery time (6 weeks or so), as she'll cut through my abdomen and remove the entire uterus and cervix, but by then we'll be dtc and my big project will be over and I can just chill while recovering. My Dr. will be calling in the next day or so with my surgery date. I get to wear a sexy sexy hospital gown! What a treat for the medical personnel!

Monday, June 05, 2006


Hale kept calling my mom his betrothed right up til it was time for the wedding. Now he's switched to wife. He's so excited. It is so cute. He is trying to lay down the law now as the "official Grandpa" that there will be no crossdressing or nail painting on the boys, but we'll see how long that lasts!
I have pictures for you! There are more but these are the ones from my camera. The ceremony was gorgeous on a beautiful day. The wind was pretty killer but my mom escaped wind tunnel hair by using hair spray that must have been developed by NASA cause the girl looks fabulous from start to finish. While my hair was super foxy before we left but by the time we got back I looked like I'd been dragged behind a truck! Click here for ceremony photos and here for more fun photos from our trip!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

A little cross dressing never hurt anybody

Ok, when we got to the beach house Marc, Sara, and Jake were at the grocery store. So the only people home were Mom, Hale, Joey, Morgan and her friend Lynda. We got settled in and I and I was talking with my mom we had an idea to surprise M,S, & J when they came back from the store. You remember the ladybug bikini Lisa bought for Ling Ling right? Well, we just had to try it on Joey. Oh my word if he isn't just the cutest thing. And didn't mind a bit that he was wearing a bikini! I especially love his P@ris Hilt0n look with my sunglasses on his head. Of course when his Daddy got home the party was over. Unca Jon just walked around muttering "That's just not right." Us girls thought it was hilarious! And besides, I had to make sure it would fit Ling Ling, and now we know it looks adorable on 16 month old toddlers!

Saturday, June 03, 2006


We're home! Mom's married and Hot as Hale is officially off the market. I've got a new step dad, Jon's got a new father in law, and no one got a sun burn. Today is a busy day but lots of pics to come!